"So What"

So, for my "So What" I have decided to pick my number 8 items on my list, which is "meet my birth parents". I'm currently on the list to meet my birth parents. I have an older sister (from same birth parents) who started the process with CFS (Child Family Service) in May 2011. She went to CPS and they opened up the file they have there about our adoption and our birth parents. We are on a list waiting hear if CFS has found them. Even if they are found, they will need to say they want to meet us. I feel excited in away because I want to meet them so I can ask them questions. Some questions I would asks them are:

a) Why did they choose alcohol over their own children?

b) I want to know about my medical history

I have no plans on keeping in touch with them after meeting them. My mom (the one who adopted me) is afraid that I will ditch her for my birth parents. I keep them her that I wont but she doesn’t seem to believe me. 

I will probably have to go to counseling before I meet my birth parents. My sister wants to meet them also but probably more then me. 

I don't really know my history and want went on when I was a baby, so I want them to tell me that information. I also want to know if they have any pictures of me as a baby because I only have one picture (which is a photo copy) from when I was 3 months old. I want to know if I have any older or younger siblings and if they got clean after we were taken away. I have always wanted a younger sister. 

Hopefully they want to meet me. I will be sad in away if they refuse to meet me because I really want to find out information about my past.